Romanello, own choice #3


      Ever since I was a child I always dreamed of being a mother. When I saw family and they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I simply replied a mother and a teacher. It may have seemed peculiar that a little child dreamed of this but for me it was because my mother influenced my life and taught me how to love other people. But with every dream comes obstacles and challenges that many people face. For me, I became sick really fast and the doctors didn’t know what to do. My family told me to take Motrin and I would feel better, but the pain continued. It wasn’t until I had an MRI and X-ray’s to determine that I had a tumor and my health was in danger and I needed surgery as soon as possible. While all of this was happening, I kept my head up. I didn’t know what was wrong with me, but I knew God had a plan. A few days later the doctor called and told me to come in for surgery. I was nervous but as a kid who’s been in the hospital many times before I knew I would be okay. Before I went under I told him, and my mom please don’t take anything that will affect me having children. He assured me that he would do everything possible to protect it. As the surgery started, he found another tumor attached to a vital organ. He stopped midway to pray with my parents and told my parents that it would be harmful to me to not take it out even though I begged for him to protect it if possible. Turns out it was impossible because each tumor was the size of a football and there was no way that my organ would survive. As the anesthesia wore out I could start seeing and hearing again to which I woke up to the nurse saying she had to take out my organ. My heart broke and completely ignoring all of the physical pain, the emotions flew out of my body. For the two weeks after it the pain was excruciating, and my mental instability was through the roof. It wasn’t until I had a checkup with my doctor who prayed with me and then proceeded to say God has a plan for you and it is possible. “Give your faith to him and he will give you the world.” In that moment I stopped worrying and put my love to Christ. Whether it is possible, or adoption will be the decision, God has a plan for me and I’m going to make sure to follow him.  

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